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Thu, 23 Feb 2012 22:23:29 -0500

who is your favorite barista at starbucks?

Sun, 06 Feb 2011 00:54:55 -0500

haha im gonna have to say this one named paige. :P

WHAT IS YOUR EARLIEST HUMAN MEMORY?

Sun, 06 Feb 2011 00:27:37 -0500

no clue. maybe mini golfing or something

The More Dilemma

Mon, 31 Jan 2011 00:38:08 -0500

I want more of a lot of things.

Since we were kids, all we’ve wanted was more. More toys, more presents, and more our way. We were selfish and whiny, but we were innocent, not knowing that we were selfish, and not knowing that we were causing such stress on the people around us. Now that we’re older, we’re no where near close to being any less selfish and whiny then we were when we were younger, and our want for more isn’t decreasing. Our want for food, our want for sleep, our want for new clothes, courage, love, lust, fear, revenge, acceptance, meaning, answers… its all just growing and growing.

We don’t have that innocence this time around.

Not saying that all of what we want more of causes pain and stress to the people around us, but since being exposed to the mess that is this world, we aren’t very aware of what we are and how we act. Most of the time wanting more can be harmless. Like i said before, i want more of a lot of things, but our greedy attitude toward our life sometimes blurs the line between smart and stupid.

Whats the point you ask?

The point is, is that once that line is blurred, we lose our ability to see whats smart and whats stupid.

Unfortunately, i know too many people who have taken steps across the line of what they know to be smart and stupid, and ended up on the stupid side. It’s a really sad sight to watch it happen to someone, especially when it’s someone close to you, then it just flat-out hurts. And just as unfortunate, is the fact that there is never a steady way to react to these situations.

But why? Why does this have to happen? Why does there even have to be a line anyway?

This is the basis for the More Dilemma.

The More

To me, the foundation of everything in everyones version of history has set a line in place. We as humans have a basic understanding of what can harm us and what can’t, which influences what we choose to accept as moral, therefore forming this line. We form this line young, while our innocence protects it from distorting to much. As we get older, the innocence fades away, and the buffer disappears. We get sucked into the way society says we should act, ignoring what we think is right, thinking whats right must be wrong, whats wrong to our elders must be right because we know it all, we know everything that can possibly happen when we do what we think is right, which a lot of the time is usually wrong.

Since we want more and more in our life, this older stage in our life is where we determine its time to figure out what we want more of.

Do we want more acceptance because we’re feeling too excluded?

Do we want more fun because our current life is looked down upon and called boring?

Do we want more love because we’re feeling too lonely?

Do we want more revenge because we feel too vulnerable?

Do we want more meaning because we feel inadequate?

The Dilemma

So coming up with answers to any of those questions above isn’t just a simple answer of yes and no. It has to do with how much more you want of something, whether it’s a handful or a truck load. How ever much more you want, determines how you try to get it.

Choice. Outcome. Consequence.

Three words that can have a monumental impact on your life. Whether you think through that process or not, thats the dilemma. The fact that we want more is forever obvious, but how you come up with an answer is what messes everything up. This is the fun part where a lot of what we get more of can bite us in the butt. Everyone has been taught to do what feels right. But whats right? Everyone will answer that differently, but the basic idea is we end up doing what we want to do, no matter who says otherwise. Human nature. Free will. This can push us over that precious line we talked about a few paragraphs up, whether it’s by ignorance or some other form of persuasive feelings or thought.

Anyway, thats the bottom line of how people deal with the dilemmas they face. How to deal with watching this happen to someone, like i said, never has one solid answer you can always count on. So we have a conundrum.

Want to help? Would you need more love to watch and wait?

Don’t want to help? Would you need more hate to walk away?

This is where you face your own more dilemma. Decide you need too much of either and both can end badly, or they can end well. Now you get to decide if what you think is right, is actually right.

So true.

Sun, 30 Jan 2011 21:58:46 -0500

The greatest cause of atheism in the world today Is Christians who acknowledge Jesus with their lips then walk out the door and deny him with their lifestyle.

If a man claims to love you, and the heart of Christ isn't his model of love, his love is false.

Tue, 21 Dec 2010 21:47:11 -0500

Is it easier to talk to Christian girls or non Christian girls?

Mon, 06 Dec 2010 22:50:34 -0500

it really doesnt matter, it just depends on how open the other person is

What It Takes To Save A Man (Pt. I)

Fri, 17 Sep 2010 04:10:19 -0400

I am a man. Plain and simple. Just because i strive to be perfect in God’s eyes, doesn’t mean i think i am, or that i’m anywhere close. But I’ve noticed this certain quality in me, one that that i think is found in a lot of men. It’s the one quality where men have the urge to fix everything, whether it’s a personal relationship problem, a friend’s significant other issue, or just that creaky door in your room that seems like it could wake up the neighbors every time you try and sneak in without waking up your parents or the other people around you. Now the whole reason i’m letting the world know about this seemingly handy quality in me, is because this quality comes out when people i care about come to me with a problem. “Well why write a whole story about this dude?” Well, because this quality is something i need to strive to avoid in these certain situations.

You see, this is something i struggle with when i try to combine this manly instinct with how i know i should react, or how God would want me to react.

Awhile ago, a friend came to me with a problem. Well, more of a confession i guess, but he wanted my advice on something. And he laid it on me. Now i know how i should have answered his dilemma, but that darn man quality took over without me realizing it. I ended up laying it back on him, telling him everything i knew that he didn’t know i knew, telling him he was wrong, and then letting him know how to fix everything. Sound like what you would do? Well, i regret the way i handled that conversation, and from a little after that night on, i decided that helping with peoples issues is something i need to think out better, and also rework how that man quality makes me think in theses situations.

So the thing i need to learn how to do, is to just listen. Now this comes as common sense to me, and i would have probably told you to just listen if you came up and said you had this similar annoyance. The thing is though, that it may seem like common sense, until your in the situation, or its been smacked right in your face. I have made positive strides in this predicament however. As i think my friends deserve a better listener, because what if i’m the only one? What if i am the only person that my friends choose to come to to seek open, truthful, and constantly striving to be non-biased ears?

The Lord calls us to be listeners, not tellers. (Proverbs 11:13, 21:23, Ephesians 4:29, James 1:26)

I am always trying to understand my ways and how to set them straight. Whether thats just that manly quality talking or not, thats how i want to be. I will always try and listen to peoples problems, and if you want my advice, i will give you some, but only if i am asked. So just remember that if someone approaches you with their problems, just take a step back and listen. Maybe they didn’t come to a man to have you tell them how to fix it, maybe they just want you to be there.

And you never know, the words you give out could possibly help, or ruin, or even save a man.

Dead & Dying Bands

Thu, 02 Sep 2010 04:34:50 -0400

So I am up late as usual, it’s almost 4 in the morning. Not saying I’m up till 4 all the time, but I find that my most reflective thinking comes in the wee hours of the morning. But anyway, what I was doing for the past half hour or so sparked some provoking reflection in my head. I was searching through the wonderful social networking site Facebook for a possible drummer for the band. As I found the person I was looking for, I wanted to hear some of his work, so I looked up his old band on myspace.

Myspace?? Yes. It’s a good place to find bands. (and if your not careful, creepers)

As I started listening to some of the bands work, I started diving into a butt load of links to bands that were in the scene when I was growing up. Most of them have disbanded, but I still remember the shows and the feelings this music brought about, as well as the time of my life I was living at that point.

No wonder some of them didn’t make it! Wow. Some of the bands in the old scene were just not good. Or maybe they WERE good, for what the scene was back then. But as I listened and checked out link after link, I began missing what the scene was and the times I had.

Seeing so many of the bands I grew up with have RIP next to there name is a bummer. It’s almost like it erases those shows I went to in a way. But those memories will never leave me, and I know that.

Now ive been out of the crowd at shows for a couple years (i count since i joined T.R.I. in 2007, first one were I was part of the crowd was probably spring of 2010) so I didn’t really get to watch how the scene was changing, since i was involved in a lot of things and whatnot, or just didn’t pay attention. But when I started going to local shows again, let’s just say that 75% of the kids were just that. Kids. 13, 14, and 15 year old kids. I felt so old! Not to mention out of place. It wasn’t the scene I knew and grew up with. But what should I have expected? Being away for so long.

I never gave that feeling anymore thought until tonight.

As much as I wish the scene could go back to what it was, I know that’s a stupid wish. The scene now is what it is. And all of the kids there are just like I was when I was younger, having the same feelings and experiences.

I, as a musician, feel like I have a duty to give those kids the same awesome time I had. No matter how much the scene has changed. I really hope I can follow in the footsteps of every dead band that has past by on my turf. I’ll do my best to live up to my memories for everyone.

New Song. This would be the demo of the new song i wrote for the...

Wed, 01 Sep 2010 03:36:00 -0400

New Song.

This would be the demo of the new song i wrote for the band.

Of course there’s no drums, vocals, of bass. Since I’m recording all this with just an acoustic guitar and the mic in my laptop.

Gotta start some where i guess.

Oh, and the first song i wrote for the band will be posted shortly.

Check 1. 2.

Mon, 30 Aug 2010 03:08:16 -0400

To break it down, i got a blog. no idea why, maybe it’ll come in handy in the future. But until then, i might write a blog or two to the millions of people who will never see this. Lets find out.